The due date is approaching!

So, tomorrow is exactly one month from Micah's official due date. With this being my first baby I'm trying to not get my hopes up that he'll come a little early - but I'm ready to meet him! With that said, I am definitely anxious about the upcoming 'labor & delivery'. I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about it. It's funny how it just strikes me all of the sudden - a nervous excitement. I've read that one of the biggest things women have to get over in delivery is the fear of delivery itself. I'm trying to mentally prepare myself by setting it up as a 'fun' experience in my mind. Jason and I will get to go to the hospital together and have our baby boy.

I'm also anxious to see how Micah changes our lives. We've been married for 5 years and are extremely close, pretty much doing everything together. It's hard to think about it not just being 'us' anymore. Not that I think Micah won't add something much greater to our lives, it's just the closing of one chapter and the opening of another, which can sometimes be hard, especially when you've enjoyed the chapter so much! I don't believe I shared this in an earlier post, but Jason and I actually started trying to conceive about 1 years and 8 months before we actually got pregnant. The first year I kept telling myself, "It will happen." but when the year drew to an end, I definitely felt hopeless, often crying, afraid that we wouldn't be able to have children. And I was too scared to find out that something was wrong that I never made an appointment with a fertility specialist. I  actually picked up the phone several times to call but would hear it ring once and immediately hang up. And then right after our 4 year wedding anniversary we started looking at buying a new house, so we both were consumed with that. We ended up falling in love with a home and closed April 20. Of course once we bought the house, we were busy moving and decorating. And then June 28 after going to church and out to eat with friends, Jason and I stopped at Walgreens and purchased a pregnancy test. I had been nauseous on and off for the past couple of weeks and thought it wouldn't hurt to take one. I'll NEVER forget seeing the double line. I had probably taken 100s of pregnancy tests in the past year and a half. I ran downstairs and showed Jason. Being the skeptic that he is, he made me wait an hour and take the second one from the box before I called anyone. So I did and I had another double line!

It was such an exciting day for us. One I'll never forget. God has blessed us with a baby and it was in HIS timing. Of course, looking back, I didn't realize at the time. Our first house was much smaller than the one we're in now and though we definitely could have had a baby while living in it, things would have been cramped. Not to mention, we found an amazing deal on the home we're in now, so who knows if we even would have been looking if a baby had been in our lives. Now we have a great home that we can raise Micah and our (hopefully!) three other children in. :) I just feel so thankful to God for this precious miracle.